Irritated.

Hello guys. Just a short post for today. Its been forever.. I havent updated anything here. As you know, life's kinda hectic these days so yeah. How are you? Life has fucked my world up for real. & yeah, nothing sucks more than losing your own bestfriend. Guess I'm gonna skip this part, it makes me sick to my stomach thinking about this. Whatever now. I had much fun a few days ago with daddy & brother. Yknow what? No? Ok. Currently listening to Yesterday by The Beatles. Such a tedious day *sigh. Im all alone at home missing my girls so much. I cant bear this anymore seriously, I just wanna drop this dead weight. What the actual fuck man everything seems so fucked up of late. I've neglected this horrible blog & yeah no one cares. I'm depressed like a frog, so many things to do. These works nowadays are never ending. & theres one guy, he's showing up online but he's been idle for so long.. Can I die? What a terrible life man. I wish I could just wake up from this horrible dream. Life is like a vacuum cleaner, it sucks. Au revoirr.

Yours sincerely,

Dina Natasha x

It's been forever, I swear..

I know this blog is horribly neglected. I think about posting something almost daily, but it's kind of like when you haven't talked to someone in a really long time and you know you should call but it will just be weird, so you put it off even longer. Well, this is me saying "hello" to goodbye.

Fragile

I've been alone so many nights now.
And I've been waiting for the stars to fall. I keep holding out for what I don't know.. just to be with you. So here I am, staring at the moon tonight, wondering how you look in this light. Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me too. There's nothing I wouldn't do. And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart, come together eventually. And when we finally meet I'll know it's right. I'll be at the end of my restless road. But this journey, it was worth the fight, to be with you..

Don't mention it if you don't even know the meaning.

‘‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. ‘I love you’ means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.”

-via tumblr

I'll leave when the wind blows.

Oh how beautiful..

I wish I could just stand there and feel the wind breeze. Again time has flown by. I've been so down lately. Not really enjoying my life. Naturally, I am not a blogger, not in theory anyway. I don't have any crafts, sewing projects or really cool house decorating to show but I am passionate about a few things. This blog is dedicated to the ideas in my brain and little things that make a difference in the world and in your body. I am really hoping to learn.

Tears fall.

It's happening, all over again. A high school lives. And I still don't understand.
Scenario: Good friend, that you trusted, and care about turns on you, and then no longer wants to be your friend. So you have to grow up and act more matured, not spread the rumor like them, not even make eye contact or confront them just to avoid a situation that would not be pleasant. Its fine, I'm used to it. I'm used to be a bigger person. Even though it never pays off. I'm used to be the one who end up not getting all the friends after the break up. Because I am the one who doesnt fight for the friends and doesnt talk all the crap. I'm okay with not having any friends left because they have all gone with theirselves. Its okay, It just makes me sad that they dont even care to know my side, not that I would tell them, but they should ask. But you know I am happy. And I can live by myself and be alone. I'm starting to think I really am a true artist because my life always has some crazy ass drama. And I think most artists, who have really inspiring work, sure had fucked up dramatic lives. Maybe that will be me, in a good way I guess. Maybe I am not supposed to have friends right now. Its okay, I'm starting not to like people that much anymore. Is that bad? Well, people are kind of mean, so I think it's okay. I do believe that most people have cold hearts, but they are so good at hiding it for long periods of time, but it eventually comes out.

You guys ain't that good..

Yes, I do have friends, with families, who believes in living for the moment. And today I talked with myself about how amazing life is and what a miracle it is that we are here.. all of us. Life is our first and most precious gift. But, take it from me, I permanently took it in an opposite way.

I believe that life is the first and best gift we receive. My parents taught me that. The awareness of that gift creates gratitude, and gratitude is reflected in giving. We all have something to contribute or share the amount depends on your perception of abundance. The act of giving creates abundance in return, and I believe that is a universal law; not to mention it just plain makes you happy.

Yours never,

Dina

                  

Hi

I've been doing a lots of crap and I've wasted a plenty of money just for topups and snacks. I skipped school again for today as my friends are going for the merentas desa. Obviously I'm so not gonna come to school. Could you guys tell me what the deuce am I going to do at school? I'm all alone and no one cares. I ain't got no excitement for tomorrow eventhough I'm gonna make it to The Curve meeting my new friends. Friends are like jewels, but I don't think they're always right there when you need them. True friends will go to the ends of the Earth and would hang on through the ups and the downs. But sympathetically.. Nowadays, friends meant nothing to us. They would call and come only when they needed us. Friend's wouldn't go and chill us out when they're busy with their boyfriends and whatsoever. This is life, and we ain't got nothing to do with it. Hope it will be fine someday. Let's sit and pray for it.

Say Hi again to Mr Jimmy

Hey. It's been awhile I haven't posted here. I'm sorry again bloggers. Life's hectic these days so I won't be able to blog regularly. So yea, I'll be taking History test tomorrow. This is terrible. I'm just really suck in History. The teachers are suck. Goddamn, oh how much I missed FIN.

I've got a new friends named Ilyas and Raja. They're awesome and funny. Edward is getting weird lately. I just don't have any ideas for it. Other than them, Faiz is the cutest of all. Haha, he is short and plump. He always makes me laugh like there's no tomorrow. Fuckyea, I had a great time with them tho I've never met them before.

Hope everyone is doing fine, xoxo

Nightmare before Christmas.

Happy Halloween bitches. Hope your day will  filled with lots of trick or treating, and lots of candy. Halloween is awesome but the unawesome part is I'm not able to go to the Halloween party at Zouk Club tomorrow. This is sad. I hate my life.

Amazing thoughts.

Time has flown by.. I couldn't believe that we have hit our 7th month anniversary! How fun! I feel tremendously blessed to have Phoebe. I benefit from her goodness every day. As I look backwards I have only found memories. Truly I see so much of the term 'marital difficulties' prevalent in society and feel blessed beyond measure because we haven't experienced that. Thank heavens (and knock on wood!). I don't believe we will.

Past is past.

He makes me laugh. He pushes me to be my best self. He is cute. He gets jealous easily. He is very passionate. He is a good planner. He oftenly tells me that he loves me. I love you even more baby.

W-h-y? :\

Darn it. I've gained weight, zzz. Depressed like a frog. SO MUCH work to do. Grrr. The work nowadays are never ending. You'll NEVER able to complete them. I feel like I just can't cope. 

'Trying hard to stay happy, not to get angry nor sad'

Sweetheart, where are you? You're showing up online. But you've been idle for so long. Uhh. Anyways, I really miss Mimi. Ya know, I'm hating my life, oh so much. Life's having a grudge against me and I don't even know whyy.. What a terrible life man. I wish I could just wake up from this horrible dream. Life is like a Vacuum Cleaner. It sucks. Upon My World! I feel like I'm stuck in this situation! Yeah I wanna move to a different world. Pleasee..

Speaking my thoughts.

I look like a misguided ghost.. Yes I know that. *Tumblr mood.

-

A few times I've sat down to write something about him, but it has been hard to start. So yeah, I'm switching to the next topic.

Lately there're lots of people asking me "Are you on a diet?" They noticed I haven't eat for days. Mmhmm.

I think a lot..

I'm a thinker, Thoughts swirl around in my head like a fruit being mixed together in a blender. I don't like to speak much, because learning new things is more interesting. So this week I've been throwing words out randomly like ....

Signing off,
Dina.

Life & Lies.

Today, I skipped school. Woke up late and did some craps on the laptop. I haven't study for months. Pretty much down lately. I've fallen so far behind. I was left out. As matter of fact, I can't seem to find the time to do my revisions for the upcoming tests. I'm so outta mood, I lose my appetite and everything. Talk about life. Life is full of lies. Why do people lie? What are they hiding? What is holding them back from saying the truth? What do they really win from lying so much? I really don't understand why people lie so much. Don't get me wrong I used to lie to, but I realize I was hurting myself and also those people I would lie too. Everyone has said a little white lie but then you have to come up with another lie to cover up that white lies. Its a never ending lie. I used to lie but I stopped. Those people you hurt won't trust you again. I hate when close friends or family lie to me specially when they hurt your close ones.

Sincerely, Dina.

What a day..

Hii. How's life? How's school? Has it been treating you well? Okay, let's just cut some slacks and come to the point. I'm a crazy FAT brat. Oh yeah, fyi.. I'm planning to buy spectacles. I'm so gonna look like a nerd.Yeah, I suck. My life has been a little crazy lately.  Hmm, most people, I lead a very busy life. Sleep is a precious commodity that I don't get enough of on a regular basis. I could tell you all my reasons, but I bet you have your own. So when it comes to sleep, I want to make the most of every minute of it and that starts with having a comfortable bed and pillow. Soo, have you found yourself a nice boyfriend? or hubby already? How is he? Is he kind and cool and all you can expect from a guy? Is he dependable? Are you two completing each other well? I'm so busybody like that so shut up. My life's suckish. I absolutely hate junior year. I really wanted to go for the Chelsea tournament but apparently, I'm so not able to go for it. Shits flying*

Happy Tuesday Folks.

I'm just stupid

Yellow (: First let me say, Happy 8th of July. Hihi. I've been doings lots of napping, texting, eating, hanging around and stuffs. No study. Just wanted to say, I really need a new t-shirts. I love shopping. Who doesn't? Oh yeah, I've gained weight, bad news for me. Oh yeah, This has truly been a long absence from the blogosphere for me, but I've been doing a lot of thinking. The only reason I came here today to deposit my thoughts is that I've been listening to musics lately, old and new, desperately remembering what I was trying to say, what someone else said to me and have been reflecting on friendships, failed relationships, new relationships. Oh god, I miss him like a lost limb. You know, I wasted my time just listening to sad bastard musics. My life've been suckish since I'm an adolescence. This blog is like a dumping ground to me. I hate to say it will be a diary or journal until I figure out something decent to write about, and it's gonna be the brain drain..

Facts of Life.

Sunday
03/07/2011
3:29p.m

As we grow up, we learn that even the person that wasn't supposed to let us down would probably will. You'll have your heartbreak, and probably more than once, and it's harder everytime. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours. You'll fight with your best friend and maybe even fall in love with them. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to you. So take many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every 60 seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. So stop the pain, fight back the tears, stand up and walk and Live your Life.

Yours truly,

Dina Natasha

Confessions of me..

I am, a daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend. I am, a partner, a student, a lover, a young girl but act like a grown woman. I am confident and scared, terrified and excited. I am, loving, caring, thoughtful, hopeful. I am, sick and tired. I am, shy and friendly sometimes*, and careful and careless. I am, broken and whole. I am misunderstood, misguided and mislead and always misplace. I am, hardworking and determined but a little scared inside. I wish upon the stars and dream my dreams. I pray to god and cry my tears. I smile on the outside while I'm dying inside. I listen to others who won't listen to me. I walk on eggshells, I walk on fire. I believe in passion but not true love. I love you and push you away. I want you but not so close. I am eveything and nothing all at once. All I want is you to Love Me,
Mr J ♥

Lend me your attention (!)

Dear Girlfriends,

He's not perfect and nobody's perfect. Don't hurt him, don't change him, don't expect too much from him. Smile when he makes you happy, cry when he makes you sad and miss him when he's not there.

Dear Boyfriends,

~ I want you to know that;
(Simple things) I love when you cuddle me with,

• A kiss on cheek ♥
• Put your arm around me at the movies
• I don't care if you're the strongest guy in the world
• Size doesn't matter (I think) so don't tell me
• I don't always look my best so get over it
• We shouldn't have to plan every single thing
• I'll always ready to talk so call me
• I'm not perfect so deal with it
• I love suprises
• The little things you do mean the most
• I'm not always girly girls
• I love boy's stuffs too
• Cursing and fighting doesn't impress me
• Don't be mean to me to get my attention
• Don't tell me who's hot cause I don't care
• When I say I'm cold that's my invitation to come closer
• Hugs mean more sometimes
• I need your advice sometimes so don't be afraid to give it to me
• I'm not digging your money or a Gold Digger
• I love sweet words, but not a fake one.

I'm Done ♥

Senseless

Baby, I'm dying to hug you. Mr J ♥
* i look pale.